I had a REAL BAD start of cny...
realli HATED to the core =x
emoing like one retarded while everyone else enjoying
luckily manage to meet up wif my darlings on tues and thurs
had great time wif them
at least i know there are still ppl hu cares for mi
LOVE THEM LOADS~~
-BIG HUGSSSSSSS- =)

i haf been thinking alot lately
mostly are flashback of wat happen previously
i REALLY REALLY MISSSSSSSING the old days
I dunno y I haf become like this
I used to be so happy-go-lucky and optimistic
bt now.......
or mayb this is the real me???
just dat I am pretending and bluffing myself last time
I could always console/help my frenz
bt not my own self
mayb dats how i recognise my significance in life ba
here goes my periodical emo-ness

-wo jue de hao bu kai xin, hao xin ku-
y do I still so lonely at times?
y do I still hate myself so much?
y do I still my life are quite screwed up?
y are we so close yet I feel so distant at times?

======>SHOTdead @ 12:06 AM!!<======

I haf said more than enough
so just treat it as i am stubborn
or i am just weird
for those dunno anything
dun ask anymore
it has ruined enough ppl's mood
so just ignore me
i will be fine i guess

i am feeling better le
bt i still...
u still duno wat i am realli sad abt
u say u wan mi to take time cool down
bt u dun even know dat i am still upset
kip on asking "why why?","What happen?"
so this means that the incident totally ish not in ur mind
mayb wat i feeling doesn't matter to you ba
or how i spend my days oso not impt to you
seems like i am the onli one spend slpless nits tearing

i know time will heal mi
cuz i wun be angry for long
bt seeing you lidat realli makes mi feel like i am nobody
even ur fren gt prob u oso will at least go out wif her
but wat abt mi???

======>SHOTdead @ 10:54 AM!!<======

today is cny eve
as boring as usual
luckily today gt work
is not sure at home emo and rot de
=x
today work super busy sia
busy till no time got lunch
bt nvm lahz
i oso no mood or appetite to eat
(>.<)
den now da store room so far away lahz
and so hard to get da stock~
keep on injured myself =.=

shall emo alone this cny...

======>SHOTdead @ 6:57 PM!!<======

cny ish coming...
my bday is coming...
bt i feel even worse den normal days
no mood for cny shopping
no mood for anything


u said u are so busy wif ur proj till forgot
bt even i free on weekends u oso ask mi go ur hse pei u do proj
yet u gt time to go and have dinner wif her
and i totally dun even know u went out for dinner
somemore we everyday talk on phone
dun tell mi you will even forget when u just went dinner wif her dat nit
or issits dat whether to tell mi anot oso not impt to u
and callin me everynit ish just to tell mi wat time wake u up
is not da first time where i dunno abt things abt u and other gals
i dunno still gt how many more things dat i am not aware of

======>SHOTdead @ 5:22 PM!!<======

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~
gt so many things need to be done in FEB!!!!!

1. Uni application (still need to find out abt aus de uni T~T) - 1 Feb
2. Presentation in RBS (haven started =x) - 4 Feb
3. Final SIP Report (in the process) - Mid Feb???
4. Spring cleaning BEFORE CNY!!!! (>.<)

Jan left with ard 10 more days only..
and CNY ish next mon!!!!
need to pack and clean my room b4 Sun lahz
-RAWR-

so many things yet...
so no mood to do any...
is my last month of teens le...
y cant I enjoy these time now...
must I move on to my next stage of life like this?!?

======>SHOTdead @ 2:24 PM!!<======

sick sick sick...
been feeling sick since Tues
(>.<)
this weekends so boring...
alone rotting at home...
haiz...

-moodless-
wats da point of saying sorry...
when you dun know why i angry...
the word sorry will solve everything mahz?
haiz...

======>SHOTdead @ 3:10 PM!!<======

I know i abit lag lahz
bt just too lazy to update at times eh =x
well...
time pass so fast
another year had passed
which means i am getting closer to becum adult?!?!?!
(>.<)
bt at least this year's x'mas and new yr was quite special =)
went to darling mat hse for xmas hse party
first time actualli realli celebrate xmas
except last yr went to pub wif sab darling and frenz
it has been quite some time i see my darlings le
all oso having holi except mi T~T
took quite a few pic
and of cuz gt my retarded candid shots too =x
bt its ok lahz still LOVE THEM!!!
and LOVE the presents!!!
hope they like mine too =)))
went to jun darling hse to play mahjong thrunout da nit
den slp a few hrs b4 we go out for lunch
went hm bath aft dat den headed to meet darling's frenz for dinner and late nit movie
reach home ard 5 den slp
soooo tired =x hee

As for new year eve...
wait for the guys to decide where to meet for dinner and so called countdown till 11
(>.<)
ended up we countdown in ty's car
and he still blur blur dunno da time reach le
LOL~~~
after dinner at airport we went to play pool
to be exact...
ish to see da guys play pool =x
den think is becuz haven been resting enough since xmas
plus i gt work everyday b4 dat
so i was damn tired while they playing
then think ard 3 plus i jiu reach home le ba
den on the first day of new year
i was slacking at home whole day!!!
LOL!!!

neiwaie...
hope ALL MY BELOVED FRENZ AND FAMILY have a great year ahead
may good luck ALWAYS wif them in wateva they do
MANY MANY LOVES~~~~~~~ =)
and hope i can be da own self again too ba =x heeeeeee

======>SHOTdead @ 11:44 PM!!<======