woah...slpt for more than 12 hours eh mi =x
back from OLTC chalet yday...
den bath n took a short nap b4 meeting mai fren for smth...
aft day back hm for dinner jiu slp again le...
all da way tll today noon =x
SHIOK sia~~~~

chalet was quite fun..
mainly play mahjong in d afternoon...
den we had our BBQ...
lateat nit...those nt staying all left le...
den mi,fio,nic n nix decided to to dance...
shun bian think of steps for our hipbra dance...
aft dat we went mac wif ck n eddie to eat...
den everyone complain body aching le...
weak sia =x LOLX
n gues wat?!
yang yang n melvin went to mac to study for their sup oso...
they STUDYING eh...lolx

den da stupid nix suggest go for nit walk in pasir ris park..
nth much happen..ws quite short oso..
den by da time we go back...most ppl went to slp le..
so we start our mahjong again...
play till 5 plus lidat i start to get bored and lazy le..
bt they stil wanna play...
ard 7 plus...
mi n ck decided to cok maggie...
cuz beri bored...
den i took a short nap until da staff cum n check da chalet b4 we left...
aft dat i share cab home wif fio they all...
dats abt all for da chalet day le..

btw mi n dear already 5 months le
going half yr le worz~~
WEE~~~~ ^~^
bt now dear dear having outfield again...
missing him sho much eh...
hope he's alrite..
n he wil be geting his jungle hat n sergent rank soon le wor~~
love love~~
JIA YOU dear~~
MUACKZ~!~!~!

======>SHOTdead @ 3:24 PM!!<======

WOO HOO~~~~
times flies....
esp HAPPY time~~~~ ^~^
last week past SUPER fast lahz...
cuz gt 3 days is mai ol training campie..
yuppiez

it ROX~~~
da progams were fun...
ppl are naiz...
n even the food oso naiz...
most of all...
mai empire ish da BEST le~~~

HIPBRA OIE~~~ XD

tho we onli gt 12 ppl...
we we gt all sort of stupid and retarded ppl inside =x
bt dats where fun lies mahz...
we did all sorts of retarded things under da sun...
we beri da zi high oso...
n BONDED~~~
i so looking forward to our outing this fri eh~~~
WEE~~~

it has been a long time sinz i felt so happy in tp le...
i hope it will not be da end...
trying to be sumone hu ish not maiself...
ish a torture~~

realli miss da camp days ya?
bt i believe our hipbra craziness will not end wif da camp...
we will still kip in touch de...
yup yup
^~^

======>SHOTdead @ 10:39 AM!!<======

not to lose faith?
HOW?!?!
how to have faith when there is NO SLIGHTEST gleam of hope?!
ish not da first...
nor da second oso...

so how am i suppose to haf ANY faith?

mayb ish truth u still treasure da frenship...
bt things have changed...
so does da position in ur heart has changed...

if ur came up wif ANY suggestion...
i would haf gone wif it...
n i would nt suggest IT fair...
bt end up it bcum ish bcuz I chosse da WRONG activities...
so wat am i suppose to do...
ask for suggestion...
"Anything"
mayb i should learnt to haf better response when i gt this kinda ans..

if i am not wrong...
everytime u cancel da meeting i am da LAST one to sms...
wif NO REPLY...
EVERY SINGLE TIME...

den da nxt time tok on msn...
"Hey how's life?"
as if nth has happened...
mayb "sorry" would appears in ur blog at times...
bt r u expecting sumone hu r angry wif u to go read?
true...mayb i am dat kinda stupid idiot..

ish dat all u CAN do?

mayb i am being ji jiao to say all this...
bt can u tell mi how am i gonna hold ANY GLEAM of hope under situation like dis?!

i realli dunno how...
bcuz besides this...
i had already lost faith in frenship...
esp everlasting ones...

======>SHOTdead @ 12:08 AM!!<======

history repeats AGAIN...
as usual...
as expected...

say wanna mit up...
bt ANYTHING came up...
it always is da priority...
sho i am nth...
bt when smth make u pissed off...
i am being attituded...

i am sho used to it until i cant feel da anger neimore...
plus i already lost faith in mai frenship...
so ya...

good job dude...
u mit mai expectation man...

======>SHOTdead @ 12:03 AM!!<======

looking at others behaving like mai OLD self...
bt dats not mi animore...
da CURRENT self ish sho diff...
or rather opposite...
u know how sucky it feels?
how tears stimulating it is?

i am tired...
i dun wanna torture maiself neimore...
i still gt 2 more yrs...
guess nth i can do to make thing better...

maybe emptiness may fill mai heart again...
bt i cant help it le...
i can only like mai tears flow...
mai eyes swollen =x

nvr feel sho dreadful for having a long holi...
for having new frenz...new class...
guess da sociable mi has dissappear frm da earth...
wats left ish juz my empty body without mai soul...

hoping to find a job soon...
NVR WANTED a job sho much...
cuz i nd to divert mai focus and energy...
I REALLI NEED...
need to get busy...kip mai mind busy...

======>SHOTdead @ 10:47 AM!!<======

i wanna gif up...
REALLY WANNA GIF UP LE...

bt guess noone cares...
sinz i am always invisible to them...
sho maybe...
they will be happier even...

there are ALWAYS a price to pay for SMTH in return
and mayb dats my choice...
sho guess i deserve it?...

-=[i shd stay and live in my own world]=-

======>SHOTdead @ 2:18 PM!!<======

SUCKZ~~~~~~~~~~~~~
SUCKZZZZ~~~~~~~~~~~
SSUUUCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKZZZZZ~~~~~~~

felling of emptiness fills mi AGAIN~!~!~!
DAMN!!!

ish so SUCKZ can?!?!?!
bt i cant get rid of it...

it has been sum time sinz i haf dis feeling

feel like crying again le T~T
haiz

tml ish my class chalet...
bt dun feel i should be there...
I dun belong there...
or rather...I belong to NOWHERE...

ppl say ish transition period...
bt guess it's not this case...

mayb I should shut myself...
den like dat i wun be sho xin ku...
cuz i will be used to it le...

hope situiation will be better aft wed...
bt not worst...

======>SHOTdead @ 11:18 PM!!<======