NAFA is TODAY~~~~
LOL~
my goal:
GOLD
da results are:
sit up - 30
standing board jump - 175cm (juz naiz get a C lahz...so happy~ this is my worst station =x)
sit and reach - 36cm
incline pull-up - 20
shuttle run - 11.3s (din run properly...bt too lazy to run again...sinz ish alr A =x LOL)
2.4km run - 14.02min
OVERAL: 28 pts (5 As and 1 C)~ GOLD
^~^

to muo muo:
i juz read da last 2 letters eh
da story abt da guy and da gal was very sweet
bt guess da gal dunno how to repay him ba
she is very glad to haf found such a caring fren like him
she oso care an concern abt him
and hoping he will get his happiness
bt she realli dunno how to tell him smth
smth dat will hurt him
he dun wan see her sad
and so does da gal
she oso wanna see da usual childish tiger wor~
and she realli treasure their frenship

======>SHOTdead @ 11:30 PM!!<======

HO JUN JUN ish on da plane now~~~
T~T
oh man~
gonna miss her
haiz...
another darling left le
y? Y?!Y?!?!?!?
LOL~
i siao liaoz~

to muo muo:
i received da card le
thanx for ur encouragement
ish very sweet of u
neiwaie...
ur muo muo write wrongly =x
LOL~
bt i realli aprreciate it~!
^~^
actualli wanna reply u in chinese de
bt my desktop cant type chinese
onli my laptop can =x
heez~

======>SHOTdead @ 1:34 AM!!<======

OMG OMG~
ho jun jun ish going aus this sun~!~!
another darling ish leaving mi~!~!
T~T
gonna miss her LOADSSSSSS =x

yday went out wif her, sab and matt
it has been quite some time sinz da 4 of us went out le
da last time ish myy bday?
tgt wif janet~!
hus in aus now
=.=
we had damn LOTS of fun lahz~
all da laughing out LOUD
all da crazy photo taking...which ish quite RETARDED oso
=x LOL~
bt i still love it man~
den we went to jun house to play mahjong
lots of funny things happen there oso
and once again...
it filled wif our madness until 11 plus
LOL~
too bad da guys could not make it yday
happy times realli flies
yday seems so short lahz~
HAIZZZZZZ.........

den now i freaking STRESSSSSS~~~~~~~~
next week gt damn lot of things awaiting....
1. NAFA -->i wan get GOLD again~
2. WEM lab test --> still damn blur (>.<)
3. 3 interviews in Royal Bank of Scotland in 1 day! --> need damn lot of preparation~~~
4. Status report submission --> half way done onli
5. Literature review draft submission -->haven do much still
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH~~~~
T~T

seems like da % has increase
dunno if ish gd or bad
juz dun wan u to lose faith in love bcuz of mi
hmmmmm.....
actualli i dun realli know wat to say now
i am realli happy to haf u this fren hu cares for mi so much
bt now i dun wan u to do too much things for mi
i dun wanna disappoint/hurt u =x
whether can put down anot
guess onli time can tell ba

======>SHOTdead @ 12:03 AM!!<======

today no meeting in bank
same goes for tml
realli think dat our team will get hell later lahz
till now still haven done much
=x

wah this week like past so fast lahz
now alr thurs le
haiz
my heart feel so weird now days
i dunno how to describe it
oso dunno y
guess ish juz da uncertainty dat kills mi ba
must i realli wait till dat day den can read?

u say u can control hu to dream of
does it means dat u can control hu to think of too?
if u realli can
i am realli happy for u
at least u can dun think abt things dat bothers u
juz wan u to be happy too

======>SHOTdead @ 10:00 PM!!<======

today onli gt one lab
and realise next week i gt lab test le~
and i still dun realli know how to use da stupid software
=x
den damn funny lahz~
during lesson
ivan say wan mit mi aft lesson
den rit aft dat
alan oso sms mi da same thing
LOL
so go find alan talk crap till px and ivan called
den ivan say he need to go make police report
he damn suay lahz~
lost IC still gt so much trouble
he ish da most mafan case for losing IC lahz
aiyoz~
den actualli plan to go back home de
den ended up went kfc wif ivan while waiting for jian hua
we so random lahz
=x LOL~

mayb u are right ba
i am asking for too much
dats y i oso feel dat my thinking quite dumb
(>.<)

sinz u dun wanna say
u said i wun regret
bt den y u insist telling mi aft i make decision?
"is it fated to be this way?"
wat do u mean by this?
haiz...
just hope you will be happy aft dat ba

======>SHOTdead @ 10:22 PM!!<======

today NO lesson~~~
SONG ah~~
bt i was damn slack
haven do any work till now
=x
think must start doing work le
now i dun even know if gt lesson tml lahz~
LOL~

will da ans dat i had planned on dat day be told?
or will another one be told?
which will not be on dat day but only other days

======>SHOTdead @ 10:26 PM!!<======

yday was boring
plain working only
(>.<)
den today ish worst
till now i still haven haf any lesson =x
skiped morning lect
cuz realli too lazy to get up at 7
den reach sch at 10 den realise no lesson again
so we now slacking in da lab waiting for break at 12
zzZZZzzz

this morning damn funny
our hse metal door da lock suddenly spoil
den everyone were trapped inside da house
den everyone was late for work
den juz naiz when i wake up dat time juz naiz ok le
LOL~

supposed to mit ivan at 3 de
bt i ended my lesson earli again
end like ard 2?
den he juz pass mi da present
ish SHO CUUTTTTTTTTTEEEE lahz~~~
ish a disneyland tiger keychain~
da body and head ish separated and can move de
KAWAII nehz~
thanx bro~ ^~^
and i realise i haf kip receivin keytrains from frenz went oversea
LOL~
bt ish very sweet of them
at least this proves they tot of mi~

as time goes by
chances are getting slimmer and slimmer
hope is getting small and smaller oso
=x
bt i hope da promise i gif u will motivate u to get thru this though period
zhe yang wo jiu man zhu le
^~^

tiger...
sorry for causing the misunderstanding between u and them
realli so SORRY~
i dunno wat to say
guess explanation oso no use
ish not ur fault
bt mine

i know lot of ppl disagree with my actions
and had caused much pain to both of your
guess i now can only........

======>SHOTdead @ 11:31 AM!!<======

went to watch get smart wif px
was quite naiz
abit dumb tho =x
LOL~
wah but today like crying day sia
lot of ppl cried sia =x

but i will be happy for da remaining days
whether da result will be wat i wan anot
i will treasure these days
mayb i will be sad when i think of da possible ending
bt at least i haf no regret as i realli tried my best le
^~^
sorry for making u kip thinking during these days
juz let mi be selfish for these few days ba
den ur suffering will be over
heez..

u said u dunno how to be romantic
bt i feel like as long as u whole-heartedly do smth
dat ish romantic
ish not da $$ amt dat matters
ish da tots/heart dat matters
i know u haf lots of commitments on hand
so dun say sorry

======>SHOTdead @ 11:49 PM!!<======

today pei han xiang go buy jeans
den we watch movie
dun mess wif the johan
was quite funny
abit disgusting tho =x
LOL
da show ish 4.20
den we 4.15 den buy tix
lucky still manage to get it
heez
den aftdat jiu come back home for dinner and project le

Sorry for making u feel sho terrible
i shd haf expected dat
not da first time le
i oso dun realli wanna explain le
u oso dun nd try to defend mi
lidat will make u feel more fan onli
u alr need to rush projects
den not enough slp
plus always headache
now even so pressurized
wo kan le oso hao xin ku
i realli rather u gif up now
sinz so many of ur frenz oso dun wish u to continue
mayb they are rit?

i oso very luan now
and feeling damn shi bai
wanted set deadline to see if we fated
bt ended up told u in da end
den promise to gif u chance till another date
bt so many things had happened
will i still be able to make da right decision by then?
plz dun ask mi wat i mean
i am too luan to tell u now
oso dunno wat i toking now oso le =x
and oso not going to tell u till dat day
sorry...
dun worry abt mi
i will be fine
as long as u dun feel so terrible anymore
bt u still haf to kip ur promise and tell mi ur prob k?
if not u will feel more xin ku onli =x

tiger...
thanx for ur concern
i oso know u in a very weird position now
realli sorry
bt u gt anything oso must tell mi k?

======>SHOTdead @ 9:01 PM!!<======

mayb u can say ish ur own prob
bu gan wo de shi
BUT THEN...
afterall...
all these ish bcuz of ME~
my presence made both of ur now thinking so much

mayb they are rit
i am not as innocent as wat ur think i am
=x

kiwi once again make strawberry upset le
even kiwi think she is such a bitch now =x
u wanna be alone
so i shall not disturb u
juz dun get back home too late ba
u still so tired

-feeling so tired...MENTALLY-

wats so great of having a relationship?
cuz someone will be there when u are down?
bt wun ur true frenz be there for u?
den wats da diff of being true frenz and BGR?
juz dat can kiss, hold hands or other intimate actions?
den dats so sick lahz~
in da modern real life...
how many relationship will eventually last longer than true friendship?

guess i realli need to get my mindset rite
and be clear abt my stand le
ambiguious relationship will hurts both parties more in da end
mayb alan ish rit
i am a gd fling rather than a gd gf
bt my conscience tell mi dat it ish so wrong to be a fling lahz~
-GUILTY!!!-

======>SHOTdead @ 10:41 PM!!<======

wenjian ish back~
met him to talk on tues
finalli get my last yr present~
=x
LOL
bt he was quite disappointed...
dat i still haven solve my prob
(>.<)

back from my freshie's class chalet today
it was actualli quite fun
until i know wats realli been going on
=x
i dunno y there are so much to ask
den seems like my presence bothers quite some ppl oso
SORRY
mayb i shd not haf went
same impression comes back
mayb dats juz mi ba
bt this time i realli dunno y
haiz

sorry for destroying ur mood in ur class chalet
mayb will be happier if i wasnt there
=x
btw wat they say dat make u depressed?

======>SHOTdead @ 5:55 PM!!<======

met dave for lunch at 2.30 today
he lahz
realli busy man sia
make mi starve whole morning
=x
LOL~
no lahz~jkjk~
ppl main comm le mahz
so know wat to do le huh?
-hintz hintz-
whahaz~~
we talked quite abit
lets wait...
and see when will dat guy appear ba
mayb i am wrong abt him
bt guess soon da ans will be revealed
and i haf to do wat i haf to do by THEN
=x

den met desmond and sab for dinner
i damn long din see desmond lahz~
it has been 2 mths
now he POP le
so another suffering ish awaiting him
=x
LOL~
JIA YOU~~
^~^
he ask mi:
"Wah this 2 mths nvr see u...like lot of things happen sia?"
den i was like
"HAHAz..hai hao lahz"
actualli i oso dunno how to ans him
ish it realli alot of things had happened
OR
ish juz i thinking too much le ne?
i dunno...

mayb u are rit
time will tell
bt juz hope dat ish da RIGHT one dat ish devoted ba
=x
LOL~

======>SHOTdead @ 11:28 PM!!<======

working was as usual boring
=x
bt funny thing ish my previous boss called mi
and ask
"Where's my best salesgirl die to?!"
LOL~
he say wanna schedule mi for work again
bt i dunno if i still wan
cuz pay qutie little
plus i dun think gt dat much time le
HMMMMM...........

I am glad dat u haf sort out ur feeling
dun need to say sorry to mi
i am ok
as long as u now not so vexed and bothered by it jiu enough le
^~^

======>SHOTdead @ 10:57 PM!!<======

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN LIM WEI XIANG~
may all ur wishes come true wor
ur last yr of teens le
=x LOL~

wenjian back from thai le
we both our own prob
so we gonna talk abt it more on tues
dun drag on le
ish time for decision
dun be tgt wif someone if u think u like him
bt can see urself wif him tgt for very long
mayb u shd consider dat?

it hurts to see u cry
see them sad
mayb jh ish rit dat i am causing all these prob
i treat u and them too good le ba
shd i let go?
like wenjian say
"dun drag on le..."
lidat will hurt ur more onli
(>.<)
WO BU YAO~

======>SHOTdead @ 12:31 AM!!<======

(>.<)
today i went to bank in da morning for nth lahz~
after waiting for 1 hr plus
den realise da person we suppose to mit ish on leave
zzZZZzzz
waste my precious slp
den went to IT fair see see b4 miting px for movie
we watch da incredible hulk
da show was alrit nohz
bt realised i have been watching quite alot of movies lately
plus i still gt a few movie wanna catch lahz
and going to drink next thurs~
my wallet gonna haf one HUGE HOLE ah~~~~
=x
den went to oasis in cs slack wif other frenz
so funny nohz~
we played cards
bt cheat one =x
LOL

u ask anyone wanna go beach wif u anot
shd i respond?
da previous time i was da one accompany u
but this time shd i?
=x

======>SHOTdead @ 2:36 AM!!<======

yday went to vivo wif jian hua
it has been quite some time sinz we mit
so we talked qutie abit
mayb ish realli my own prob
i am da one cause all these prob ba =x

wah today gt miting at VTB again le~
wake up SSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO early~!~!
(>.<)
bt at least gt progress
our supervisor coming back le~~
WWWEEEE~~~
cuz we not still quite blur eh

aft miting nixon juz naiz sms mi ask mi go out
like so rare lahz~
nixon teo nehz~
LOL
bt ish bcuz he tio ps by his fren
den he ask mi pei him go buy present
like so funny lahz
i like every yr pei him buy present once de
LOL
he cut his hair
and i think he look better in short hair lahz~
den oso not so skinny le
bt dun kip eating super lahz
later too big ah =x
whahaz~~~
and so fun tickle him!!!
cuz he today nvr tickle mi back~~
woo hoo~
hu ask him kip shooting mi
(>.<)
bleahz~

happiness is simple
for mi
i juz wan da ppl ard mi are happy
my frenz
my family
everyone dat i cared and loved
wo bu xiang anyone wei wo nan guo

======>SHOTdead @ 11:31 PM!!<======

ur entries are so sweet
i am so touched
but at da same time
i feel guilty
(>.<)

i dunno how a gal dat u know for sho short period can haf dat kinda impact in u
i tot u juz let go of da other gal when we first time go out =x
shd i congrats u for finding someone u love again?
or shd i scold u for ur stupidity for falling in love so easily?

i realli wish u can find ur happiness
bt can i gif u da happiness u wanted?
i oso not sure...

======>SHOTdead @ 11:40 PM!!<======

BBBBOOOOOOOooooooooooo~~~~
rotting in sch lab now
waiting....
(>.<)

was browsing frenz' blog and friendster
den heard a very familiar song
forgot da title le
abt frenz forever smth lidat de
will hear this song during graduation de
still rmb last time whenever i hear this song
i will cry
bt...
now not anymore
dunno y

ish it really dat my tears had dried up le?!
or ish i had lost faith in frenz forever? =x

======>SHOTdead @ 2:05 PM!!<======

lucky yday nit no mosquito kiss mi during my slp
bt i still gt biten when i was using da com at nit
zzzZZZzzzz

went to watch kongfu panda today
was quite funny
den han xiang was saying he will go watch again if can
LOL
and we finally get to eat da ice thing
was realli quite naiz
thanx for da treat~
hahaz
on da way back
it seems to be a long ride lahz
as usual =x
hen lei de nehz
so CHILDISH~~~
LOL~~~
when we reach back tamp
den it starts to rain
den starts to POUR~~~
even we each gt one umbrella oso no use lahz
bt lucky i wear his jacket den nvr get wet
heez~
overall...
it was quite fun today
we laughed alot
at quite dumb things tho =x
LOL ^~^

======>SHOTdead @ 11:43 PM!!<======

OMG OMG~~~
i woke up late again~~~~
(>.<)
for god knows y
my alarm din go off
zzZZzzz
and so suay i off my hp yday nit
PLUS
din slp well
cuz gt mosquitos kissing mi da WHOLE nit~!
ARGH~~~~
gonna make up da lesson
bt dat not da main pt
i am scare to see my student's mum lahz~
NNNNNNNOOOOO~~~~~~~
=x

aft lunch
plan to watch movie de
bt realise nth naiz except kongfu panda
bt i am watching tml
plus no free tix oso le
so ended up to party world
so funny lahz~
2 ppl go sing k~!
LOL
den saw my frenz there singing wif their frenz oso
hahaz
shall upload da videos another time
jing qing qi dai~
HEEZ~ ^~^

well...
guess ur 'Secret' is a publicly known secret now le ba
=x
i realli din know i am dat naiz eh
bt to be frank
i think i not dat great afterall
i nvr tot dat i fu chu more den my past bfs
guess their way of fu chu ish diff from mine ba
u said i am caring to everyone
bt i hope this is not giving u false hope or wat =x
i will still care for u as my gd fren
u are a naiz and caring guy too
i realli wan u to be happy
and find da gal will love u as much as u loved her
i am glad to meet someone think so highly of mi eh
and thanx for writing such a sweet entry abt mi oso wor
LOL~ ^~^

======>SHOTdead @ 1:04 AM!!<======

If there ish no confession

den there will be NO rejection

so y not keep da (last) confession for a more confident one?

den u will not lose faith in loving someone

sooner or later

u will find da right one dat treat/love u better

SHOULD i call?
dun wan u to lose faith in love

======>SHOTdead @ 6:43 PM!!<======

@~@
today 7 A.M. woke up and go for meeting in da bank
i freaking tired lahz
zzZZZzzz
bt at least we finally manage to meet some users for interview on our own
^~^

neiwaie...
thanx for the flowers
is very sweet of u
tho not everything go as planned =x
but really SORRY for the answer tho
guess our thinking abt relationship is diff ba
da first step for mi ish juz too hard now
(>.<) SORRY~
actually few days back
i somehow expected dat it may happen today
and it realli did
=x

======>SHOTdead @ 12:43 AM!!<======

MUSCLE ACHE~~~
(>.<)
actualli ish only my leg lahz
after so long din run =x
LOL

today i gd gal staying at home and do work~
nan de rite?! =x
lolx

hmm today actually ish da deadline
bt sinz i haf alr screwed up my plan
so forget it le
=x

neiwaie...
my MP now started le
gt lot of things to do
bt onli 3 members
zzzZZZzzz
SOOO.....
guess i now shall put my heart into my studies le
NOT other things

dun treat me too good...
cuz i will feel guilty de...

======>SHOTdead @ 11:59 AM!!<======

SIAN SIANZZ~
so sian of sch...
so sian of projects...
so sian of my life
AND
so sian of MYSELF~
(>.<)

oh well....
juz a random post abt my feeling now...
booOOooo....
=x

======>SHOTdead @ 12:40 AM!!<======

omg OMG~~
i went RUNNING today~~~~
and played SQUASH~~~
it has been months before i exercise lahz
=x
LOL~

my MP meeting ends at 2.30 lidat
den went ate lunch wif px
saw james and JESSLYN and frenx
-hint hintz-
whahaz~ Xp
den he dunno shy or wat
jiu come to our table
LOL~

after they went for their paper
i mit jian hua and we go RUN~~~
we ran 2.4km~
wah i realli damn long din run le
haven even finish one round jiu start to haf stich le
=x
bt still manage to finish it
den we played squash
aft dat px, james and ivan came over
den i play wif my squash junior till 6 lidat

den i went to courts wif px and james
james like so wanna renovate house lidat lahz~
everything oso wanna see =x
LOL~
bt da most funny thing ish dat...
i SIT INSIDE da TROLLEY~~~~
like omg can~
i dun even doing dat when i am young lahz~
=x
everyone was looking at mi
so retarded~
bt i dun bother lahz~
cuz lazy to walk
LOL~

oh well...
guess i shall go slp le...
haven been slping much recently
tml still gt meeting...
and think i going to run again =x

mayb wed going sentosa
ANYONE interested???!!!
^~^

juz received a sms from wenjian
tot he's back from his ns training in thai
BUT~~~
he actually still in thai
AND
he juz sent oversea sms for mi only~~~
ish so sweet of him~~
X)
Thanks so much dude~
i will tc and will find u if need to de
u too tc there wor~

======>SHOTdead @ 11:49 PM!!<======

went shopping wif han xiang yday
was quite fun actually
bullying him =x
LOL~
sorry for the injuries tho
BUT~
ish u ask for it de
hu ask u dun wan tell mi things
BLEAHZ~
i will make sure u tell mi next sat
-evil laugh-
whahaz~~
btw sorry for leaving early worz
thanx for ur understanding~
^~^

aside from dat...
realised recently many sad things happened
many of my frenz gt relationship probs...
some have bad experience in their frenz...
and many more...

seeing all these...
my heart feel sho heavy
bt no tears
oso dunno y
how i wish i can cry
=x

live can be very vulnerable...YET....can be very strong
so live it to the fullest wif no regrets...
before its too late

======>SHOTdead @ 3:20 PM!!<======