whoa~~~ 2nd blog in one day worz....1st time nehz -clapz- well i am lame...sorrie...i am going crazy le...esp today...


HELP~!~!~!CAN SUMONE HELP TURN OFF MAI TAP?!?!?! IT'S SPOILT AGAIN~!~!~! T~T


juz now when i in lab writing da previous entry already feel like crying le...bt manage to hold back...BUT juz now when i watching wo cai wo cai wo cai cai...da host(ah ya) ish going abroad... meaning dats her last time doing da show...saw her memory n wishes given to her...i cant hold back animore...mai tears juz stream down mai face...in da living rm lahz..den i quickly went to bath...bt guess wat....it bcame WORST~!~!~! mai tap ish TOTALLY ON~!~!~! oh man~~~ mani things came to mai mind again...mai frenzships...relationship...mai pathetic bday this yr... graduation...leaving da ppl i lovee to be wif...NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~


-flooding da hse liaoz....ani shoulder available?! >.<-


CRYS,
LULU T~T

======>SHOTdead @ 9:50 PM!!<======

BORED~~~~~~~~~~

having BPM lab...3 rd hrs of BPM lesson le...slcking now...EVERYONE~~~ gt play game de...gt listening to music de...gt ppl eating de...lolx n guess wat? today mai lesson ish frm 9-1~~ den can leave le...n ish all at da SAME place...lucky gt com to use...if nt sure men si de =x heez


juz now heard JJ's song- sarang heyo (dunno if is lidat spell worx =x) then suddenli lot of thing came to my mind...things abt all kinda relationships...nt juz BGR worz...dun get mi wrong...


mani ppl tot i beri sociable...beri friendly...bt no one knows actualli i am quite a failure in handling relationship wif others...nt to say BGR...even fren...n family...haiz...i oso dun wanna end up like dis...i oso wanna be close to her...treat her juz like a fren...bt sumhow...we seems to quarrel whenever we start any convo...on ani topic...or mayb we dun even tok much now days..i dun wanna trigger arguement...i am tired...i dun wan war...bcuz it sux...both of us are hot-tempered person...once it starts...it will be a horrifying one... i am sho envious of mai frenz ard... how i wish we can be da same... shop together...laugh together...spend time together... even da little dat we haf together... bt atmosphere ard us ish always sho intense...sho nt comfortable n normal ~.~


now...i spent most of mai time wif squash mates and INTSC frenz...they are da closest to mi now... i love being ard wif them... they are all sho naiz n caring... without them...i think i haf already brocken down le worz...hmmm...THANX~~ bt when ppl cums...ppl goes too... graduation marks da start of new life..oso marks the sadness of parting...sec sch buddies...sargas-ians, 06S202 classmates.. ogl... den now ish is TP graduates...sum of them haf left...missing them loads...n there are still ppl going to leave -crys-


sho mani things are stimulating mai tears...hard to hold back animore...


BLUEZ,
LULU T~T

======>SHOTdead @ 11:17 AM!!<======

-YAWNZ-


yday for once slpt at NIT le~~~ 11.45pm...bt today sch at 8...AGAIN~~~ haf been reaching sch at 8 sinz da start of sch dis week le z~z haiz...still panda eyes worz mi o~o


yday went for dance practice...6-8...bt i finish sch at 3...sho i go find clarisa aft sch...den i drag her to squash court... and once again.. mai hands ichy den i go play...in a beri improper clothing worz =x heez dance was damn tired lahz yday...summore mai area da air-con spoilt...den i sweat like siao >.< bt was fun lahz...aft dance...went squash court n wait for Liyi...cuz she wanna go buy bubble tea...in da end...Liyi, Camelia, Yi Ru and mi buy bubble tea le den sit down n chit chat... n we decided dat nxt wed we go for dinner after mai dance~~~ WEEE~~~ lolx



rit now...having PRSP lab..teaching Java...sho guess i beta go concentrate le worz..



-tired-

======>SHOTdead @ 9:30 AM!!<======

WWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~


FINALLY FINIMAI PRSP ASSIGNMENT LE~!~!~!~!~!


AFTER DAYS OF SLPLESS NITZ >.<>~< sia ="x">.<


hmmm...sho shd i be happie or sad?


falling aslp,
LULU

======>SHOTdead @ 12:44 PM!!<======

sianz....having PRSP lab...sho tired...sho hungry...n mai tighs sho pain~~~ >.<


guess wat? bt i still gonna stay till late late n finish up mai PRSP assignment...it due tml lahz... den mai Alice in mai com almost hang every 10 min...wat da hell~~ X( think tonit gonna chiong till late late le...hopefully can slp ah =x


sign off with sighz,
LULU

======>SHOTdead @ 10:41 AM!!<======

AAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~


today i beri OFF FORM again~!~! mai serving ah...haiz....


physical training was as usual tiring...bt still alrit...bt da match horz...haiz....melvin let mi walkover summore....think i disappointed him eh =x sorrie~~


papa came beri earli today...12 plus 1 den reach le...den he cum squash court n slp...piggie eh =x lolx this ish wat happen when mai naughttie papa dun wanna listen to mi n slp at 5...wake up at 9...tsk tsk Xp after wi sheng has reached...he n papa went do pull-up...den fiora n kor(eric) came..den they waited until 2 lidat...bt i was still doing back hand...den i ask them go eat 1st...cuz they all beri hungry le..yuppie...da pao for mi...sho they went opp sch eat n da pao chicken rice 4 mi~!~! thanx worz~~ bt they cum when when i was abt to play mai 1st match... against Xin Hwee...n i lost both games...or rather kana trashed by her >.<>.<>.< sho aft lunch...we all end up SLPING in club room~~~~ mi n fiora even shared a matress!!! slp till sho shiok can~~~ hmmm...ya..den qi sheng n kor went tm meet joselyn they all i think...fiora went hm...n papa walk mi home...know wat?

hmm...i shd stop mai crapping here...need to chiong for mai PRSP assignment le...yarz...sho take carreee worz pplz~~~mon start sch le!!!(blessing or curse?hmmm)


LOVE,
LULU ^(00)^

======>SHOTdead @ 10:16 PM!!<======

well well well...i dis whole week no work worz...y? bcuz i din know must write request da week b4 >.< sho smart of mi...and sho naiz of mai frenz working wif mi =x lolx...neiwaie mayb ish a gd thing oso..cuz i am quite tired now days...n gt PRSP assignment to chiong oso~!~! and other projects...haiz...

yday i work frm 4-9...den i went hm bath b4 going katong for supper wif mai fellow pastamaniacs...cuz company gif each outlet $500 worz...whahaz~~ bu chi bai bu chi mahz... lolx sho by the time we reach ish like 12 plus le...den xiao di ordered da food...gt alot lahz...bt elaine still ask us to order more..she say bcuz still gt lot of extra money left..hmmm...elanie da clumsy queen eat crab until spilt da sause on mi cna~!~! even mai hair kena!! >.< den our bill end up $290.90 i think...da seafood was nt bad lahz...n we had lot of fun worz~~~ XD aft dat i took cab wif elaine,victor and marcus hm...i am da 2nd person hu alight...reached hm at 2am lidat..den i straight away go orhz orhz le...BUT bcuz i was rushing back...mi forgot to sms papa(ron) dat i going hm le...den make him worried da whole nit =x sorry worz papa XB

abt today mahz...nth much lahz..woke up 1 plus 2...den dun feel like going centis chalet le =x n i think mai mama wun let mi go oso =x after yday's supper...heez...sho i be guai guai gal start on mai PRSP assignment...bt da stupid Alice hanged half way...den i sianz le...sho cum here blog~~ whahaz~~~ Xp

======>SHOTdead @ 5:23 PM!!<======

hmmm...abt one week sinz da end of term tests...i almost go out everyday...except today... hmmm...n weird thing ish...i still wake up automaticalli at 9..dunno y oso =x and of cuz...goin bankrupt soon oso >.<


aft going kbox wif squash ppl...den i went kbox again on sat...wif INTSC ppl =x n guess wat? i suppose to go kbox wif mai MJ squash seniors kbox today oso =x bt last min cancel off... heez XD serena was da 1st one to start singing...and she realli sings quite well worz...n both of us knows cantonese...sho we kip on sing canto songs...sinz da rest nt singing...kekez~~ bt sat i was beri tired tho...cuz fri gt work till 11...doing closing again >.< den i realli fall aslp in kbox =x mai da jie stacy looked beri tired n sick...oso like wanna slp wanna slp lidat...den she even cry when fiora singing da song yi ge ren sheng huo(live alone)...den when i sayang her dat time...i maiself cried oso when i think of maiself T_T wats worst...her feet ish still hurt frm wearing da covered shoes...n as a clumsy queen i am...i kick her wounds dunno how mani times le.. accidentalli...SORRY DA JIE~~~ den we oso found out ron's weak point le worz..whahaz -evil laughz- bt i end up hurting da jie n ben ben =x paiseh worz~~ aft kboxing we went for dinner...eugene joined us...bt we 3 sis din eat =x cuz mi n fiora got dinner at hm le... bt ron dun like ppl skip meal...sho we 3 ate smth dat he bought for us...den da situation nt sho intense le.. aft dat....we played zhong ji mi ma...1st time play wif them...da 'food' still edible...tho abit too spicy =x n i tio da last one...one of da biggest spoon de...bt ben ben drank it for mi...sorry worz~ thanx neiwaie~~ XD


sho i end up quite late go back hm again =x dats y i sun decided to rest at hm..till i start work at 5...sho nth much to say...bt one thing major happened at nit...mai mama came back le~!~! i suppose to happi...aft nt seeing her for 3 mths...however, i am nt =x cuz she cum back during holi again~~~ haiz...n she's nagging at mi for going out everyday n slp sho late le...esp now i am working...cum back hm...bath finish...tok to mai fren on phone when waiting for hair dry she oso dun let...wat da... >.<


mon i gt hip hop dance frm 2-6...bt i left earli cuz gt work at 5...bt i end up left dance earli n dance New Age gal wif da squash ppl =x lolz~~~n mai mama came to pastamania on dat day... bt i forgot to ask her buy da strawberry soda...cuz i wanna drink dat one~~~ beri naiz de~!~! Xp neiwaie...she at 1st say send mi hm aft work de...bt end up she say she's too tired...sho i went hm maiself...n dat day gt 2 customers kip on irritating mi...they like cant accept no for ans lidat.. until mai manager haf to tok to them den they stop n left -phewz-


tues i went sch for project in da morning...which finish damn earli...den i wanted to go dance de...bt i nvr bring pants...sho i skip practice again =x n i start playing squash frm 3 plus lidat...all da way till 9 plus (5-9 ish official training)..bt mai performance was damn jia lat dat day...cuz gt coach watching den i get too nervous...hands shaking >.<>.<)..n even mai senior say dunno wat was i doing!! -arrghz- plus i whole day onli ate one potato in da morning...1 curry puff and 1 choc bar during trainin...n i kena scolding frm mama cuz i went opp sch n eat aft training =@


on wed,we shan liang wu jie mei(shining 5 sis? lolx) suppose to go play pool de...bt it was mai good fren's bday...and summore aother of our good fren cant make it...sho i went celebrate wif them...we watch CARS...bought a bday cake for him and pei him buy present for his bro...den we go parkway play pool for 1 hr lidat...aft dat i den go mai MJ 1st 3 mth class(06S202) BBQ at east coast~!~! bt ish pit 44...which ish damn far frm parkway can!!!! >.< luckily majority of da class turned up..i realli miss them LOADS lahz...bt some was missing tho...like mai beloved ogl mates khai and fenty...realli miss those days go crazzie...screamning and shouting wif them sia.. realli hope to see them soon again...06S202 ROX~!~!~!~!


now...nth much...stay at onli...wanted to do research de...bt end up slacking in front of da com =x den stacy they all ask mi go watch silent hill oso...bt i tell mama i today good gal stay at hm le...sho cant go...haiz~~~ too late liaoz >.< sorry!!!


sho papa...mi update le worz...happie? lolx Xp

======>SHOTdead @ 4:00 PM!!<======

YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~`
term tests r FINALLY OVER~~~~~ YEAH BABE =D

hmm....bt guess wat? i finish today...or rather yday...cuz ish 2 plus now le...den i gt work from 5 to 11...n i was later for 1 FULL hr =x oopzie neiwaie..working was as usual lahz...crappy and tired...bt FUN worz XD actualli b4 dat i went kbox wif mai squash frenz...we suppose haf a scheming kboz trip tho -ahum ahum- hahaz...bt guess there's sum changes in da end...bt think we achieve wat we wan oso ya? bt sadly...i cant stay wif them till 10...cuz gt work nia >.< bt last part i still go crazzie =x wif da gals...esp karen...marry moon..whahaz~~~


well well well...exams r over of cuz i happy...bt sad things happens too...thurs ish INT graduation ceremony...it was indeed quite sad ya...seeing all da seniors leaving...tho i onli know a few of them...papa(ron)...kor(eric)..desmond...Qi sheng...Justin...Zen...i actualli dun realli know them...not beri long oso...bt as i mentioned in previous few entries...i quite pathetic in TP...in terms of frenz...sho i actualli hang out wif da seniors more den year 1s..sho i realli feel sad seeing them leaving...times we had was short but sweet ya?

haiz...now left wif da yr 2s n 3s le...n yr 3s are leaving soon oso...oh maiz -cries- wannna be wif ur more often sia >.< -sobz-

wanna be maiself again,
LULU

======>SHOTdead @ 2:36 AM!!<======

term tests started today...kinda screwed up mai first paper...PRSP...open book test summore... haiz...nth to say le...

yday nit...i was totally freak out n i cried =x both downstairs mai house and on bed...izzits a bad omen? hmmm....i haf a beri bad feeling...feeling beri stress now...in addition to those sucky feeling i already had sinz dunno when...

ppl always say frenz r always there when u need them...i know they will if realli smth happen to mi...bt sumtimes i am juz too lost...aft i posted da past few entries...they tag...i felt loved...bt it was short =x i know i cant expect all of them to hang out...call mi every now n then...cuz they gt thier sch...life...frenz oso...mayb i am juz pure selfish...i dunno...i am changing...change to sumone i dunno oso...


aiyaz...i dunno wat i toking now oso~~~~ haf to go study le...even i CANT~!~!~!when i am SUPER STRESSSSSSSSS~~~~~``

AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~``


SCREAMING,
LULU

======>SHOTdead @ 3:50 PM!!<======

current action:
in da lab reading and updating blog..

nxt week ish mai term tests le...still haven realli start revising...i dunno how...

still feeling lost n loneli...i am not da old fl animore....i am currently
-quiet
-moody
-does nt belong where am i
-missing da old days wif frenz
-loneli
-no motivation
-lost in studies

i HATE all these...i wan mai laughters back...i wan mai frenz BACK~!~!~!i wanna be noisy...crappy n crazy once again...bt i juz CANT~!~! TP ish big...ppl here r naiz...bt i dunno y i juz dun fit in...esp mai class...guess i am da onli one eh...

3 yrs...i gonna be here for 3 long yrs...senior say muz enjoy...cuz ish beri happening in TP...bt i dun seems to getting it...4 yrs in TMS ish full of happiness and sorrows...both frm strangers to frenz and frm frenz to strangers...i do feel smth when i graduate...beri mixed...den i end up 1st 3 mths in MJ...together wif 2 of mai best frenz...bt life there was hectic...studies and ogls... sho most of da time i spent wif sabbie...06S202 and sargas ogls...we bond beri well...thru all da hardwork...tears...laughter in preparatioin of 2nd orientation...tho we onli know each other for 2 mth(to be exact)...we felt alot for each other...last nit of orientation we juz flood da sch...i till nw still feel da same when i think of them..

I AM INSANELY MISSING and LOVING...
TMS
4V
SARGAS
06S202
MJC

BUT.............i am FREAKING wan mai loniness NOW to go away...i dun wan end up in depression...i juz wanna be happie once again...be da true and usual fang lu one more time...

i am lost...


CAN ANIONE HELP MI?!?!?!?! HELP MI TO BE WAT I USED TO BE~!~!~! >.<

======>SHOTdead @ 1:05 PM!!<======