i am feeling much better le
neiwaie thanx for the care and concern ppl~
^~^

well...
recently i realli getting damn slack
in fact...
i has been lidat sinz da start of yr 3
=x
i dunno...
like not motivated anymore eh
(>.<)
plus da stupid tes demoralized me SO MUCH~
T~T
still haven finish my mp
one more month to go
and haf to deliver da group report and individual lit review le
bt i onli halfway done
or even less
=x
realli need to buck up le~
bt HOW?!?!?!


my mind was quite 'busy' recently
dun exactly know y or even wat am i thinking
=x
sounds complicated huh?
i oso dunno how to describe it
i feel happy over beri small thing
bt at da same time
feel upset over very small thing oso
things dat i nvr tot will make mi feel lidat
PMS huh? =x
LOL~
i dunno...



da world ish full of ppl wiff diff char
and mayb ish hard to find someone lidat
bt u nvr know u will meet someone hu ish much better in da future
yuan fen ish like gan qing
cant be controlled
bt i believe we all will find our destined one one day
as long as we dun lose hope in love

======>SHOTdead @ 1:08 AM!!<======

i am SICK~
i think =x
well not fever lahz
or mayb i slight one?
bt catch flu for sure
had been sneezing for whole damn
can stop da tap
haiz...
bt aft talking med jiu feel better le
manage to slp a while when ju and her bf at da house
til now...
haven eat dinner yet
not hungry oso
=x

i know not feeling well must eat
bt wat to do
house noone
den oso nth to eat
guess gotta wait till nix come bring me out ba
(>.<)


or mayb noone cares oso ba
a company dinner ish more important den someone sick alone at home
wanted call my mum de
dunno y i dailed his no.
=x
neiwaie he dun know oso

======>SHOTdead @ 8:05 PM!!<======

wah sianz~
recently like no mood to update eh
=x

orhz well...
actualli recently mostly ish abt my MP and SIP stuff ba
MP like realli need to rush le
cuz i CONFIRM will be in RBS for my SIP~!~!~!
WEE~~~
so happy lahz~
bt sadly my fren din get in
so haf to depend on myself le
LOL~

last Thurs VTB gt staff party at their boss's house
and tho we are not staff there
we are invited too~~~
to help out
=x LOL~
bt nvm lahz~
was quite fun and da ppl are naiz
they seems quite enjoy oso
and our effort are appreciated~
^~^
SO....
our supervisor treating us lunch tml~
heez...

today mit alan to catch up abit a during my self training~
i din go down bank today
feel abit bad
bt luckily nth much today oso
cuz no new template for mi
and they was playing most of da time
LOL~

realised i haf quite a bit of work to finish by this week eh
1. data mapping
2. status report
3. continue my lit review
4. mit sab darling
5. watch movies
6. mayb drink wif da ns ppl? =x

======>SHOTdead @ 11:46 PM!!<======

went for facial today~
feel quite good
bt painful eh
=x
cuz da lady help mi squeeze out all my blackheads
really do it for my whole face lahz
den aft i am done
my fren say skin tone gt brighter abit
den plus da person keep psycho me
so i buy package for 3 more times =x
bt I like da lady hu serve me eh
she very frendly
and not pushy
^~^

aiyo~
wat happen?
tho i dunno wat u referring to for "Why am i doing this?'
bt PLEASE dun xiang bu kan wor~
u still gt lot of ppl hu cares for u de
dun hurt them eh
=x
if u need to talk to someone den find me ba

======>SHOTdead @ 12:11 AM!!<======

aft da screwed up test
plus my ever increasing MP project scope
i finally gt one gd new today
I got in RBS for SIP~~~
WEE~~~~~
finalli confirm my bank le
bt still dunno da pay yet
hope ish higher
=x
LOL~

aiyoz~
y u say dat?
u are still my fren hu i cared abt
u will always be
plz dun say dat
(>.<)

======>SHOTdead @ 11:12 PM!!<======

FREAK IT lahz~!~!~!!
!@#$%^&*
kaoz~
i nvr feel so SCREWED aft a test like this b4 lahz~
DAMN FICS test~
and damn it consist 40% of BOTH module~
NO SUB PAPER~!
fail module means wat?!?!?!
4.1~~~~~~~~~~
AAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~
(>.<)

feeling DAMN FED UP NOW
wif myself
so much bloody mistakes lahz
do in reverse order...
keep missing steps and get stuck...
panic
NO TIME~!

aft test i feel FREAKING HORRIBLE~
wanna cry
BUT CANT~!
haiz
T~T

======>SHOTdead @ 1:06 AM!!<======

ARGHH~~~~
i feeling super duper sianz and MOODY~
i dunno y
haiz...
dunno wats wrong wif mi le
(>.<)

thanx for ur present
ish SSSSSHHHHHHOOOOOOO CUTE~
i think i saw dat somewhere b4 oso
LOL~
neiwaie i like blue oso
=x
bt nvm lahz~
both colours i like
zhen de xie xie ni wor~
^~^

======>SHOTdead @ 11:54 PM!!<======

OMG OMG~
i am freaking STRESSSSED this morning~
so many things are not confirm~
my MP scope ish increasing like hell
den cant contact liasion officer
dunno how to do coding for da portal
dunno which system to retrieve da stupid data
we haf to by hook or crook must finish by mid sept
ETC....
arghz~

but HENG ah~
i finalli manage to reach my liasion officer ind a evening
and she say dat we onli need to do till BRD
well...
dat suppose to b a gd news
BUT~
it oso means dat da report templates and prototypes we had done ish wasted
=x
in fact
this project we keep like do things
den end up not needed or changed requirements
den restart again
zzzZZZzzz
now we left with less than 2 months?
can we still get an A?
haiz...

======>SHOTdead @ 12:57 AM!!<======

wat ish ur dat way?
if dat way make u feel better
den i dun mind
mayb forgetting me will make u happier
at least u wun will so hurt i guess
=x

======>SHOTdead @ 12:21 AM!!<======

interviewSSS is OVER~~~
-CELEBRATE-
whoo hoo~~~
well...
da 3 interviews was quite alrite
i feel lahz
they din realli ask much abt da bank itself
so we do research for nth~
=x
bt nvm lahz~
at least i know more abt da bank~
and all of them quite frenly
bt i think cs was more suay den mi
he was interviewd by 6 ppl all tgt
i onli haf 4
LOL~
and da guy hu ask him lot of qns actualli ask mi quite little things =s
hahaz
orhz well~

NOW~
can onli pray dat they accept us le~
i WAN to go RBS~!~!~!
LOL~
and nd to start working hard on mp liao
tho no pay make mi damn sianz~
i nd $$$~
=x heez~

======>SHOTdead @ 12:13 AM!!<======

seems like u now dunno hu to talk to anymore le
and u are lost too
dunno which ish da real u
i oso dunno if da heaven ish good or bad to u le
making mi da true one for u
=x

u realli wan mi forget this frenship mahz?
bt i dun think i can
cuz to mi...
frenship ish juz like relationship
not say u wanna forget jiu can forget de
i care for u ish cuz i treasure u as a fren
ish not sympathy or wat
so plz dun feel pathetic

======>SHOTdead @ 12:04 AM!!<======

Recently lot of changes in my MP/IP/SIP
ish so luan and complicated now
y ish my yr 3 so diff de~!~!~!

guess u feel so f up bcuz of mi ba
mayb u are rit...
i juz dunno how to put myself in other's shoes ba
bt if u feel like complaining or wat
whether wanna complain to hu
juz dun hold it back
lidat u will feel better
and i will be happier too~
i dun wanna see a TRUE tiger
not one dat pretend to be
KE YI MA?

======>SHOTdead @ 11:52 PM!!<======

her reply:

'Sorry'
'Thank you'
'Glad to found a fren like you'
da gal know dat all these are not wat the boi wanna hear
bt guess dats da onli thing she can tell him now le
she not purposely wanna kip it from him de
juz dat she dunno how to tell him
now da gal had made her decision
and seems like da boi oso had made his
she knows dat her decision had hurt him
bt like he say
dragging on or kip him from da truth will hurt him even more
sho now da boi knows da truth le
she wanna help him
bt she dunno how
but wat she know ish dat
she will still be here for him if he wans
like she always did
bcuz this is a promise between them
she realli hope dat he will move on and get his own happiness

JIA YOU~~~~ ^~^

======>SHOTdead @ 10:34 PM!!<======