looking at others behaving like mai OLD self...
bt dats not mi animore...
da CURRENT self ish sho diff...
or rather opposite...
u know how sucky it feels?
how tears stimulating it is?
i am tired...
i dun wanna torture maiself neimore...
i still gt 2 more yrs...
guess nth i can do to make thing better...
maybe emptiness may fill mai heart again...
bt i cant help it le...
i can only like mai tears flow...
mai eyes swollen =x
nvr feel sho dreadful for having a long holi...
for having new frenz...new class...
guess da sociable mi has dissappear frm da earth...
wats left ish juz my empty body without mai soul...
hoping to find a job soon...
NVR WANTED a job sho much...
cuz i nd to divert mai focus and energy...
I REALLI NEED...
need to get busy...kip mai mind busy...
